We walked hand in hand. The world was just a place of sweet smelling roses and nothing else really mattered unless it put a smile on our faces. Everything was perfect when we were in company of each other. Almost everything we set eyes on cracked us up. We openly shared our thoughts, feelings and secrets without an aorta of restriction; we felt safe with each other. At least we believed our words were buried in each others ears and never to be dug up; we had no worry of being judged. We often played crude and nasty games and we cared less; farting games were our favorite.We genuinely loved each other. Our relationship was perfect!
On campus, we usually heard comments like, ” You are such a cute couple!”, “You look great together!”. We kept saying,” We are not a couple. We are just friends…” Because that was the truth but over the years, we got tired of saying, ” We are just friends!”. We just decided to say, “Thank you” whenever we heard comments like that. “Besides, what the heck! We are friends and their words will change nothing”, we thought.
After awhile of being treated like a couple wherever we went, we decided to actually be a couple. Moreover, we thought there would not be any difference in our relationship. We started acting like a couple. Just like others expected from us.
After a while our relationship changed. We were mistaken. It was definitely not the same. We stopped walking hand in hand. Her excuse? She is shy and simply not into public display of affection. I asked myself, ” Weren’t we doing that before?” Well, I said it out loud looking to the ground intentionally as if I did not want her to hear. She also whispered to herself, ” We are now actually dating…that’s why”
The biggest problem for me was that our sense of humor dwindled till there was not much to laugh about. We argued about the flimsiest of issues circled around jealousy, attention, care, affection and all the ‘lovey-dovies’ I knew I was not ready for. I simply could not stand her incessant jealousy and desperation for exclusive attention.
SECRETS?. I can not begin to tell you how secretive we became. Not to say I had anything to hide, but I simply wanted to avoid arguments. Our relationship generated walls of restrictions I never knew existed between us before. It was puzzling because I thought the label ‘boyfriend-girlfriend’ will only bring us closer.
Gradually, I could not stand her. I simply could not believe what the title, Boyfriend-Girlfriend did to our relationship. The joy in our relationship came crumbling down on us. We broke up. After a while, we tried to be friends again but we were never the same. I lost my friendship with her forever…
I did not realize the label boyfriend-girlfriend could be such ‘kill-joy’…