Quite early in my life, I knew something that nobody knew. I saw something nobody saw. I related to something that many didn’t see. And that was I felt I didn’t belong here. A lot of things didn’t make any sense to me. I questioned so many things till I broke within because I questioned them silently. I lost my voice because I never used it till it lost it’s power. It is so much easier blending in this insanity the world calls life.
I write this because many times have I been asked the same question in different ways, “What drives you?” “What motivates you?” “What is your destination in life”
For so many people, they find fulfillment in going to school, getting a degree and even higher education. Others find it in finding a great job that pays well, finding a life partner, having children and having fun while you can in awaiting death. So life in itself is just keeping yourself busy till you die. The thing is, I never really related to any of that, at least not in the way everybody else seems to.
“if life and being here is all about that, then I don’t want to be a part of it,” I said that prayer for the first time in college. None of that made any sense to me as a child and the concept never does. It seemed too empty a meaning to life to pursue. It may sound crazy but I couldn’t relate to any of that.
So my prayer changed,” God let me find my own unique purpose” It was then that I could begin to imagine my life in my own unique way. If I worked, could it be connected to that greater purpose? If I bought a mansion and a fleet of cars, was it connected to my unique purpose? If I traveled every day or weekly, will it be connected to my divine purpose? If I got married and had kids, will it be connected to my divine purpose?
So I started to express myself in everything I do towards that voice that consistently speaks to me and drives me towards that purpose. It may not be clear now but I know that every stair becomes clearer to me as I take that step. It will be good to have all the good things in the world but I don’t want any of it if it is without meaning or purpose. God let me enjoy life and be happy based on my God-ordained purpose in life. That’s all I want and desire. I hope your questions in my IG stories have been answered now.